i'm now in emily's house.pei her and jan and leena do hw.waiting fr ps to come.

ok.ytd was wings which i did horribly.f.i cried ytd in front of the sec 3 girls who consoled me.thanks girls!yes.i dunno what lan timing i ran but i'm sure it isn't good.it isn't ideal.it isn't what I WANT.what i want is far more better than ytd's timing,i'm so very sure.but i wanna noe my timing a lot.the team told me not to give up after just this fall.pick myself up again and train harder than b4 is the one and only solution to achieving my goals.however,i still felt super sian diao and sad ytd.i dunno what happened to me ytd.i don't wanna find stupid excuses to blame for my timing.neither do i want to blame myself for not training hard for the past few months cuz i noe that i had already trained to the best of my ability for the past 5 mths.i only noe that i screwed up badly ytd and it was one of the worst race i had ever run.what kept me going was reali my determination of NOT stopping.i cant stop.stopping is one sign of giving up.i was reali tempted to stop when i saw ppl stopping.however,i reminded myself of the hard work i put in every trg,the teachers and frens whom i dun wanna let down.these kept me going out there,but at a pace i dun wanna run at EVER again.yes.probably i hadn't fall b4,so i would take ytd's race as a lesson to me.a lesson i will nvr fail to forget.another thing which i wanna work on is the home stretch.seriously,i suck at it.emily also told me my home stretch was reali slow.

today,went to sch fr a video.haha.mrlee let us watch this video abt triathlon which was super inspiring.cool.ok.i gtg liao.