back to track and i broke down during the first trg on tuesday.

i dunno what's happening to me.i dunno what i want.maybe i just couldn't take the stress,the competition.ok la.maybe i'm too used to cross trg.but i asked myself:what i really want?do i just wanna give up like that?return to cross and continue trg?i thought of trg for next yr's cross nats.i reali dunno.but right now i just have to give whatever i have to track.

and then i asked again:since i've overcame last yr's track season,why can't i do the same this yr?weak?useless?i'm sort of enlightened after i thought it through last night.mayb i should reali just concentrate on going into the finals for 3000m and 1500m.i know it would be hard,but i wanna try.i dun wanna give up so easily.yes.i should do that.track might be tough.so long as i'm willing to try,nothing can stop me.i'm sort of contradicting the previous para la.but nvm.i just blogged how i feel now.

ok la.trg's gonna end late in the next 2 mths.it's gonna be tough.it's gonna hurt.but i rmb mrlee's words:if u r hurting,everyone out there hurts just as much.ytd when we finished the 400m trial,pandian told us to run 8 rounds at 2mins per lap.i knew it wouldn't be easy.i wanted to stop at the 5th lap but i really dun wanna give up.i continued lor.followed mish all the way but lagged a little behind during the 7th lap.when we finished everything,i was super happy.haha.like that lor.tmr trg is at gombak,8am.

i'll try (: