i suddenly feel like blogging about nats.

months of trg boils down to just one race.wednesday,18 april,2007.i wonder how many of us are actually looking forward to it.

yes.maybe no one is.because those who are running on that day suffers.suffer what?pain.the mere pain in yr thighs doesn't stop you from running.it's the pain in the mind.the mental pain.the mental torture which we have to go through.unnecessary right?but why?why are we willing to go through this torture?because we want it.we want it so much that you see ppl running in the morning,even on trg days.you see ppl crying over not being in the team.you see ppl crying over their results for a certain race.you see ppl going for trgs even when they're in pain.you see ppl struggling to complete the workouts the coach gives.you see ppl struggling to overcome their psychological barrier.all for what?just for the race.

i rmb how i felt in sec2 and 3.sec2 was most of our peak yrs.i did a pb of 16.34 in sec2 and have not broke it since then.i see juniors doing a 15.50 and i feel demoralised.but i know,feeling demoralised will get u no where.and so i've decided to train hard.sometimes,i just feel that im not reaping anything.but i try.i don't like to give up easily.because i know how much everyone in the team wants the top4 position.i couldn't bear to ruin everyone's hope.

it's true that the pain lingers in yr mind during the race.it's also true that you need really great determination to overcome the pain.but how determined are we?

if i get to run on wed,i'll really run.you know.run.not jog.really run.i dont mind running till i faint at the finishing line.if that what it takes,i gotta do it.

as a sec4,i really hope to leave a legacy behind for the juniors.and i really hope the team do the school and the coach proud.mrlee's right.if we dont get anything out of the race,it doesnt matter.it's the time we spent tgt during each trg.the joy we share.the jokes by lirui.the scolding by jingjie.the lameness by emily.the hiongness by leena.and the cuteness from the juniors.and i know i'll cry on my day of graduation.mostly due to the fact that i'll be leaving rva.or maybe i'll cry on wed bcause that's when i'll unofficially end my role as a vice captain and leave xc.

so.i've told myself to not know pain.to not let pain stop me from doing a low 16.(if i'm running)

3 more days.it's all up to us whether we want to know pain,or not know pain.all the best!